Diary Entry #7 – I’m getting tested! – Challenging the World’s Standard

December 7, 2016

Hey everyone!

So I want to share with you the spiritual test I’ve been going through lately…

I was convicted when the Holy Spirit revealed to me how “independent” I’ve become. Instead of depending on the Holy Spirit’s leading in every single area in my life… I’ve more so leaned towards following the world’s standard or just going with my own feelings. What I didn’t know is  how much God actually cares about every single detail of my life… not just the things that I believe are significant, such as finances, relationships, etc.

I’ve noticed times in my life where God shared His opinion with me about something and instead of listening… I kind of just ignored it and went with whatever I wanted to do. This may sound crazy, but here are just some examples…

I started my “loc journey” a couple of months ago because I loved the freedom and no-hassle lifestyle that it promised… so I went for it! But… I never truly had peace about it and everytime I looked in the mirror, I felt the Holy Spirit saying, this is not the hairstyle I want for you. I’m like, “but why God? It’s just hair? How am I going to explain this to people? They will think I’m crazy if I say, I can’t get locs because ‘God doesn’t want me to.'” But it’s true, God cares about the minor details of your life, even about your hairstyle! My body does not belong to me. My hair does not belong to me. And when God created me and purposed me, He actually did have in mind how I would look and be presented to the world.

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price.Therefore honor God with your bodies.”
– 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Here’s another example… I thought that in this world of “social networking” I should “maximize my brand” on as many social media outlets as possible. Bleh, nope! During one instance in particular, I followed the crowd and downloaded the social media app called: “Snapchat”. Immediately I didn’t feel peace about it… but I keep using it anyway because I knew it could help me grow my business, social media presence, etc. The Holy Spirit kept nudging at my heart and revealing things to me about the app… I have done tons of research on it’s founder and history and pretty much have an essay of why I shouldn’t use it… But I’m like, “God… it’s just a social media app. Why do you even care? I can use this opportunity through snapchat to be a “light” in a dark world….” Yeah right, who was I kidding? I was just conforming to the crowd.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
– Romans 12:2

Now I am not saying that you shouldn’t use Snapchat… God’s plans for you may be different… but I personally felt convicted and this week I had to sit and ask God, “so which social media platforms(if any) would you like me to use and which ones would you like me to stay away from?” It’s scary how much of an idol social media has become and how much we can feel entitled to an online platform.

It’s like, according to this world, if you have a business and you’re not on social media, you’re a joke and your business doesn’t exist. But who fed us that lie? Do we not believe that God can open doors for us, even when we’re hidden? Do we not trust that He will lead the right people to us? Even when we aren’t engaged in self-promotion?

This is my test guys… I am learning to trust God even when I do not understand. I’m learning to rely on His ways vs. the worlds path to success, even when I think I know better.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”
– Proverbs 3:5-6


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  • Pamela Walker December 8, 2016 at 6:47 am

    As usual, your posts ministers to me.

    • Pamela Walker December 8, 2016 at 6:47 am

      You’re so inspiring!

      • Karolyne Roberts December 8, 2016 at 7:52 am

        Aww, I’m glad that I could share in my struggles to encourage you! Thank you for always commenting on my posts and always supporting me! 😉

  • M.Nicole December 8, 2016 at 3:45 pm

    Amen to this!! I actually started my loc journey because I felt led by the Holy Spirit. And it felt weird thinking God wanted me to grow locs. Like really? LOL! But do you know what I did when I felt Him tugging on my heart about it? I went and shaved half my head with an undercut…then went and shaved it down to a fade. Now don’t get me wrong, I LOVED my no hassle fade and I was cute too (lol), but then I had to be obedient to God and wait for my hair to grow out again to start the locing process. January will make 2 years of obedience to locing and that time has included temptation to chop them off due to my impatience. Who knows how long He will have me to keep them. But for now, I’m rocking my babies!

    • Karolyne Roberts December 8, 2016 at 4:16 pm

      That’s so crazy how everyone’s situation can be different according to their life experience and how God chooses to deal with them. Wow! Thank you for sharing your testimony and thank you for being obedient! 🙂

  • Mary Carter December 9, 2016 at 3:26 am

    I can definitely relate to the social media. I, too, thought I needed ALL the social media sites, yet every time I created one outside of Instagram and YouTube I never felt peace. The thing is we each have an assigned place and people to disciple and minister to and that includes our social media. For example if you’re called to minister mainly or specifically on your Twitter, but you’re giving too much attention to Snapchat or you’re distracted with trying to juggle 5 other sites, how can you effectively pour out to your Twitter followers, the people actually assigned to you? Just a thought.
    Also, I am SO glad that you’re doing this Diary Series. The transparency is so encouraging to my walk of faith.

    • Karolyne Roberts December 9, 2016 at 3:05 pm

      This is so true!! Thanks for sharing this thought. I totally agree! & I’m glad to hear you are blessed by this diary series! Amen.

  • Jaqui-Lyn Cook December 11, 2016 at 6:07 pm

    This is so much confirmation as I do the work God has called me to do! Totally explains why I get certain advice from bloggers on how to grow traffic and don’t feel any peace about it! God’a way is the best way! Thanks for your transparency!

    • Karolyne Roberts December 11, 2016 at 8:44 pm

      Aww amen! God bless you Sis 😉

  • Daniel Emmanuel December 11, 2016 at 6:44 pm

    Hi Karolyne,

    Thank you for this! Real truths you have shared!

    For example, I am not so much of a social media person and I am a writer! When I write on my blog only folks I have access to their emails read it. Yes I want more, but the Lord has kept prompting me on the importance to be content per time, so I am learning to be!

    One thing that happened earlier in the year, I was prompted to share my posts on google plus and through that someone who has been blessed by my posts there told me of a writing opportunity for a ministry which I accepted and through that platform more individuals are now reached.

    I think all we need to do is trust God absolutely (Proverbs 3:5-6).

    Remain blessed

    • Karolyne Roberts December 11, 2016 at 8:47 pm

      Amen! God knows what he’s doing and He opens opportunities when He sees fit!! I agree, we just need to trust Him and continue in obedience.. God bless! Thanks for sharing 🙂

  • Sasha December 11, 2016 at 8:47 pm

    Powerful. This is beyond true. I’ve been hearing this message often, its confirmation, right? But, yes, God will bring us the right people, and contacts, at HIS right time. Thanks for sharing this, it was a powerful message.

  • Crystal S. Daye December 12, 2016 at 6:47 pm

    Totally in agreement with this post…. All I can say is GOD IS REAL!!

  • Brittany December 13, 2016 at 6:58 pm

    This post truly spoke to me. I’m new to the blogging/YouTube world and sometimes I do wonder what is the right way to go about promoting things. I just want to be led by the holy spirit as my journey down this path begins. Thanks for sharing! xoxo

    • Karolyne Roberts December 13, 2016 at 11:52 pm

      Amen! Thanks for your comment 🙂

  • Shante January 19, 2017 at 3:32 pm

    Thank you for your transparency. God is definitely speaking through you. Your posts are identical to what I think about all the time WOW.

    • Karolyne Roberts January 20, 2017 at 2:02 am

      Wow! Amen! Thanks for your comment 🙂 God bless you!

  • Kayte February 24, 2017 at 3:40 pm

    Wow. Interesting how the Lord even cares about our hair.I pray and hope that I’m not rushing ahead of him in opening my other accounts.Question, Is this the reason why you deactivated your personal IG page?

    • Karolyne Roberts April 4, 2017 at 12:36 pm

      Yup!! & Amen.

      I deleted it because I felt led but you can follow my new instagram @TheWritersRetreat