So I want to share with you the spiritual test I’ve been going through lately…
I was convicted when the Holy Spirit revealed to me how “independent” I’ve become. Instead of depending on the Holy Spirit’s leading in every single area in my life… I’ve more so leaned towards following the world’s standard or just going with my own feelings. What I didn’t know is how much God actually cares about every single detail of my life… not just the things that I believe are significant, such as finances, relationships, etc.
I’ve noticed times in my life where God shared His opinion with me about something and instead of listening… I kind of just ignored it and went with whatever I wanted to do. This may sound crazy, but here are just some examples…
I started my “loc journey” a couple of months ago because I loved the freedom and no-hassle lifestyle that it promised… so I went for it! But… I never truly had peace about it and everytime I looked in the mirror, I felt the Holy Spirit saying, this is not the hairstyle I want for you. I’m like, “but why God? It’s just hair? How am I going to explain this to people? They will think I’m crazy if I say, I can’t get locs because ‘God doesn’t want me to.'” But it’s true, God cares about the minor details of your life, even about your hairstyle! My body does not belong to me. My hair does not belong to me. And when God created me and purposed me, He actually did have in mind how I would look and be presented to the world.
“Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price.Therefore honor God with your bodies.”
– 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Here’s another example… I thought that in this world of “social networking” I should “maximize my brand” on as many social media outlets as possible. Bleh, nope! During one instance in particular, I followed the crowd and downloaded the social media app called: “Snapchat”. Immediately I didn’t feel peace about it… but I keep using it anyway because I knew it could help me grow my business, social media presence, etc. The Holy Spirit kept nudging at my heart and revealing things to me about the app… I have done tons of research on it’s founder and history and pretty much have an essay of why I shouldn’t use it… But I’m like, “God… it’s just a social media app. Why do you even care? I can use this opportunity through snapchat to be a “light” in a dark world….” Yeah right, who was I kidding? I was just conforming to the crowd.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
– Romans 12:2
Now I am not saying that you shouldn’t use Snapchat… God’s plans for you may be different… but I personally felt convicted and this week I had to sit and ask God, “so which social media platforms(if any) would you like me to use and which ones would you like me to stay away from?” It’s scary how much of an idol social media has become and how much we can feel entitled to an online platform.
It’s like, according to this world, if you have a business and you’re not on social media, you’re a joke and your business doesn’t exist. But who fed us that lie? Do we not believe that God can open doors for us, even when we’re hidden? Do we not trust that He will lead the right people to us? Even when we aren’t engaged in self-promotion?
This is my test guys… I am learning to trust God even when I do not understand. I’m learning to rely on His ways vs. the worlds path to success, even when I think I know better.
“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”
– Proverbs 3:5-6